Tuesday, January 31, 2012


Ninocon is this weekend! I hope you have cleared your day for all the writerly awesomeness Ali Cross has in store for us!

Monday, January 30, 2012

I want a Zen Life

Last week was a bust for me. I was tired, stressed, in pain, sick, uninspired, and practically ready to give up on all hobbies. Thankfully, I have my Critters to pull me out of my dark pit. We reviewed my chapters and I had a realization about myself from them. I don’t know how to show my emotions. It shows in my writing. Somewhere along the line I became so accustomed to keeping things to myself, I forgot how to convey my emotions through body language. Crazy huh? No wonder my CE gals are always teasing me for not smiling.

So I’m changing things up a bit over the next few weeks. I’m getting back into my morning pages (they really do help, and I got a finger shaken at me for not doing them. Thanks, M!), I’m getting control over my pain through eating better and doing Yoga (the kids love doing this with me. So cute!), I’m eliminating as much of the stress from my life as possible, and I’ll be studying people’s emotions.

I want a zen garden too... Maybe outside my office window (hint hint, hubz)

I’m still going to physical therapy, but I do not like it one bit. For some reason I come out worse than when I went in. So I’ll try Yoga, and perhaps even Zumba, it looks fun. I’m looking for a work out buddy, if anyone is interested.

As for writing, I’m planning to finish this draft by Sunday. I would like to get it printed out and ready for MRU’s and Scene and Sequence by next weekend. My wonderful Critters kept me from tossing it into the trash bin, and once again I’m feeling inspired to bring it into the world. I want to share my dreams with the world.

I have other fantastic, wonderful writerly news, but it’s gonna have to wait until later this week!

*dangles tantalizing news over heads*

So stay tuned ;)


Monday, January 16, 2012

Pain in the *bleep*

As some of you may know, I’ve been dealing with a lot of pain the past few weeks. I’ve lived with mild pain for a few years now, but lately it’s amped up. I hurt everywhere, especially my back. It’s a curse in our family that goes by the name fibromyalgia. My great grandma had it, my grandma has it, and my Mom has it. Each generation it gets worse and starts earlier…

Although I have yet to be diagnosed by a doc (because I have to go through military docs and they don’t really care how bad you hurt and will only give you motrin until you hurt so bad you yell at them to give you some flippin muscle relaxers or else… ahem… sorry..ranting) I have every symptom and most usually am hurting on the same days that my mom and grandma hurt. We are like human barometers, able to predict a shift in the weather (which has been all sorts of crazy this month). Stress also causes more pain, and what mother isn’t stressed out on a daily basis?

So, we are trying to relieve some stress in our home to help with the pain until I can get my referral so I can go see a doctor who actually knows what the heck he’s doin. My hubby is learning to help out more, and I’m trying not to allow things to bother me quite so much… keyword trying. I learned today that it would be much better for the both of us if instead of getting angry and storming around, that I just talk it out with him. By the end of the day, my muscles ached like I had just done an hour of a Jillian Michael’s exercise routine. Not fun.
My husband made the comment that it would be nice if there were such a thing as vampirism or werewolves, this way I would only have monthly pain instead of daily. (yeah, I turned him into a paranormal fan)

My biggest comfort has been my dog Jasper. He is with me 24/7. He curls up along my spine at night which puts off heat to the sorest spot of my body, he keeps me company while I lay on a bag of ice, and he is always ready for a good cuddle. He is not just my dog anymore, he's a best friend.

Writing helps too. It forces me to sit down and relax my muscles and relieves a lot of stress. Sometimes it can be a little hard to concentrate, but I have been working very hard to learn to work around that. Instead of working for a full hour, I work for 25 minutes and then take a break. This is how I manage my house chores as well. It keeps me calm, focused, and productive, without causing too much pain.

This is another reason my mom is my hero. She works everyday though the pain. Her life has been filled with stress, but she pushes through. I only hope I can adapt as she has.

So if I’m particularly whinny one day, I apologize in advance. I’m still learning to cope. Just tell me to hush up and get to my corner.


Friday, January 13, 2012

who I am now

I have come to love writing almost as much as I love reading. Which is great! It’s good to keep the two evenly balanced. As Stephen King said “If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have the time or tools to write.”

I read a lot. I read about love, romance, horror, paranormal, scifi, tragedy, mystery, and most important I read about writing. I keep my tool box full. I have always been a dedicated reader, something that my grandmother passed down to me when I was very young.

I always had a way with words because of my constant reading. My mother loves to tell me how she laughed when she read the letters I sent her from Airforce basic training. She said the way I told of all my misadventures in my letters made her feel as if she were reliving them. That should have been a clue then that I was a natural story teller, but it wasn’t until a few years ago that I decided I was going to write.

I had a dream that insisted it needed to be told. So one afternoon, I sat down at the keyboard, and started the first few pages of WF. I had no clue then how much time and work it would take to finish this little hobby I had started.

Fast forward to today. I’m still working on that very same story. I havnt given up, and I love this book. I have faith that others will love this book. I have a blog where people visit and read my words, and I have dozens of writer friends helping me learn new things every day. My hobby blossomed into something more. It’s taken hold of me and refuses to let go. So, I continue to write. It’s become a part of who I am now. I’m a writer.

How did you first realize you wanted to write?


Monday, January 9, 2012

IPad 2 giveaway from Raffelcopter

Rafflecopter is running an exciting giveaway to celebrate the official launch of their site. You could win an iPad or a Kindle Fire! Its easy to enter and if you win a kindle fire, I get one too! Just enter "Wild@Heart" as the one who referred you!