Wednesday, September 4, 2013

IWSG: Jumbled Routines

Happy anniversary to the Insecure Writer's Support Group, brainchild of Alex Cavanaugh! Head on over to his blog to hear about what he plans for the future of IWSG.
Summer is gone, my little girl is back to school, and it’s just little man and me. Plenty of time to get chores done, and then sit down at the keyboard for some writing.
At least that's how it plays out in my head. Only by the time I get the chores done, because nobody picks up after themselves, it's nearly time to pick up my daughter from school. After that its nonstop mommy mode until I tuck my little nerdlettes into bed, and then crawl to the comfort of my own bed with that last tiny bit of energy I have left.

Am I the only one having a hard time getting back into the swing of things?
I tell myself its just me being lazy. Like how I keep saying I'm going to start working out again, every day. Truth is, all I have to do is utter the words diet and exercise, and I gain ten pounds!
Maybe its just going to take me a few weeks to get into this new routine. Maybe I should write first, then do chores... but those dishes, they mock me from the corner of my eye, telling me what a terrible mother and housewife I am if I don't get them done pronto.
Bubby comes in, lonely now that Sister is at school. I have to take time to play with him, work with him on his speech, his shapes and alphabet, and his numbers. I want him ready for school next year, want him at his best, because mommy took the time.
That is my goal.
But then there is my dream. I want to be an author. I want to be published, but I know it won't happen if I don't work hard, if I don't put in the time.
I need to quit acting like writing is just a hobby, and start treating it like the job I intend for it to be.
I have to figure out a better way to manage my time.
I know eventually I will work it all out, its this time between that drives me bonkers.

Tell me I'm not the only one.

7 comments:

  1. A change in routine can really throw things. Ugh! Fall, for me, is the time to actually get back in my groove, so I welcome it. But I get the feelings you have in summer!

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  2. You're not the only one!!! I wish I could say it was just the change of seasons, but I always feel like this. I envy the writers who only WRITE!

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  3. Nope, you are not the only one. I love fall but fitting in homeschooling and housework is about all that I can do some days. I can write if I don't clean... yeah that only works for so long. I'm working at being content with my minutes that I squeeze in here and there. Its not the hours I want but its still working towards my dream and if that's all I can do right now, that's ok. Frustrating, but still ok.
    I hope that you strike a balance that is perfect for you!

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  4. One writer mom I encountered hired a sitter for one day a week, but a rather long day, and went to the local coffee shop to write.

    Sometimes splurging for something like a maid or sitter can help. Kind of like when I homeschooled...I paid quite a bit for the computer-taught math curriculum (that even graded for me!), but the break it gave me to do other things was very much worth the money.

    Good luck. Hope you find some time for yourself. :)

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  5. I know what you mean. I'm also trying to balance my dream of being a writer with the reality of getting everything else in my life done.

    Still trying to figure it out...

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  6. Sorry to break it to you, but time will always be a problem. You'll just get better at using the small bits of time you have to write. I thought this summer would give me more free time, but it was the most unproductive writing season I've had in a long time. I'm hoping this fall will be better.

    Glad you're in the IWSG.

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  7. I call it the Mom Syndrome. Just when I thought my "babies" were on their own, we have one back home again for a bit while he gets some medical care. I think it's just called life. Sigh! But I feel your pain. :)

    Julie Luek
    A Thought Grows
    Co-host IWSG October

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